After 18 years of education I finally feel a deep sense of appreciation for it.

here's to another 6 or 7!

I don't like working in a basement late at night, the morning is better. When trying to situate my work I find myself a long way away from being a relational aestheticist. My artwork has changed a lot in the last year, I want to make informed decisions and not waste any time regurgitating ideas. I feel like I need to rest in order to gather my thoughts, but I'm too anxious to stop working. So I've just been experimenting, trying to avoid all cliches, and doing what I consider to be the most ambiguously boring painting I've ever done. They are so complex that they are beautiful to me, but there's something wrong with them, I don't know what's wrong with them.

I don't think I can settle on a single idea of art making. I'm a director not a producer.

I've never been to the west. in two weeks I'll visit salt lake city and see mountains for the first time in my life.
Painters never retire.
I'm very young in the art world, so young I'm barely even considered. I feel like the only thing waiting for me now is exposure.
I'm about to move to a house down the street, I like houses and new challenges.
I might be moving to New York or London in a little over a year.
Painting is the most challenging thing I've ever attempted.
I'm not as nostalgic as I used to be, I'm more excited about the future.
Sex.
I'd rather drive a car than be a passenger.
I never want to own a car.
I like when an art piece does not differentiate a question and an answer.
My appetite and metabolism have changed. I want to eat small portions of the things that will do my body well.
I wish I could swim everyday.
Money.
Psychoanalyzing myself.
I love to work on projects, I love to blend schools of thought.
Summer isn't long enough, spend time outdoors, and try to stay cozy in the winter.
Big plants.
I should try falling asleep.
The past seems greater than the future, though it's best to believe otherwise.
Enjoy time.
Fall asleep.



things on my mind, in no particular order